Prude

Explain to me what the problem is at being a little slow to move in the intimate direction?

Don't get me wrong I enjoy intimate relations just like the next person but I guess I just require a little more before I let loose. I really can't explain it. Sex isn't the first thing that comes to my mind when I am attracted to someone. It rates pretty high. In the top five at least but it's not # 1.

I just have to be comfortable around someone before I dive into those murky waters. As wonderful as those feelings of passion are they make things so much more complicated. Maybe that is why I am such a prude. I can remember back to the first times I ever did anything like that and nerves I had over if someone would walk in on us. Or we would get caught parking in a some dark lot behind some building. Blame my conscious on all those years of a Catholic Education. I don't even believe the information they pounded into my head but the definetely left me a hefty tumor of guilt.

My best friend told me this summer that she finds it absolutely hilarous that I can act like a horny 12 yr old boy about sex and then clam up and be a prude when she approaches me with questions about my sex life. I've always had issues talking about those things. I can't explain that either. I am a reserved person to begin with so it tends to make things more difficult.

I guess I just want to know where I stand before I let my hair hang down and go crazy. And if I don't know where I stand then I can't let go.