Friday, March 19, 2010

Blue birds fly, so why can't I?

http://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2010/03/21/magazine/20100321-soliders-bedrooms-slideshow.html?hp

I stumbled upon this.

I am obssessed with this idea to write a play or short story about the mounments we create in our own homes to those who have passed away.

Example, my brother's old room.

Whatt follows are just some very general and very ideas.

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The room with it's rich navy walls and white corvette poster had been there everyday of her life.
Nothing had ever really changed in this mosulemem. The furniture orantation was probably the biggest switch. And the continually addition of crap into the space. If her mom didn't want it anymore or if it was going to be gone through later it all went in that room. Just like the memory of her brother.

His younger sister had never known him. He was 18 when he passed away. He had been running with friends on his college campus and quite suddenly collapsed. Or at least that is what she had been told. Little hints had been dropped here and there to her that maybe it wasn't just a massive heart-attack that killed her brother. This hints had mainly been dropped by her once dying grandmother, who in drugged induced hallicanations would look at her and mumble something like "You know your brother was taking a lot of streiods when he passed away. That's what caused him to have his heart attack." Her grandmother would then breathe deeply, with that nausating breath of sickness. Her eyes would glaze over and at times you would swear she was dead. Then suddenly she'd reveal another skelelton from the family closest.

The trouble was his sister never met him. She was born two years after his death. So when people would express how sorry for her loss they were she'd simply reply "My family appericates it but unfortunately I never knew my brother." It was like as soon as someone mentioned death everyone feels sorry for anyone involved. The problem is sometimes you are assoicated with death but you aren't affected by it. Everything is jsut sort of numb because you have no connection with the deceased even though you might even be as close as brother and sister.

The room was eerie to her, it housed some type of spirit or remain of what her brother once was. But, she couldn't quite place the enegery. She felt she couldn't because she never really knew him. It was a bit like like going to a memorial an not knowing what it was for. There was always a disconnection for her, ever present and nagging like a bad cough.

What she never rally truly comprehended until now is that just two short years aftr her brother passed away she was born. Her mother was still in the greiving process for the majorty of her life. She never quite understood those implications on her life till now. That was why she was always so nervous and worriesome.
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I think it's just fasincating those photos or rooms full of life but sterile and empty.
It's an amazing juxataposition.

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