Where the Streets have no Name.

For the longest time I have kept a journal and I thought I had outgrown the habit. Recently, I have discovered that that thought of mine was a crock of monkeys. I have however been on a hiatus of journal keeping and I think that was a very poor decision on my part. Therefore I have started a new journal. ( Got rid of my livejournal. Oh! the days of teenage angst! )

So, here we are embarking on a great and frightening journey together. This journal will well be filled with hopefully exciting experiences and many happy and boring memories.

A little bit about the title of my journal. I have always been fascinated with Mythology and my favorite myth is Eros and Psyche ( Yes, I am a romantic. Sue me. ) The reason I chose it is because I am firm believer in the heart and soul being combined into doing whatever you love the most. My greatest passion is the ARTS. ( Yes, I know how fitting. Yet, another theatre major with a blog/journal...*rolls eyes* ) Along with Eros and Psyche my favorite myth is the Rebirth of the Phoenix and continuous cycle of death and rebirth that goes with it. I think that we as artists ( and people in general ) are phoenix's constantly recreating and adapting and destroying the things we hold dearest.

Anyway, moving away from the clinical...

I am at a near cross roads in my life and I don't like it very much. I am now 21 and still in college. I am not far from finishing. I could graduate a semester early or I could stay the extra semester and have a smaller workload and have the potential to be in a show in the spring of 2010. Along, with this decision I have to come to terms with what I want from life. Namely, what do I want to do for the rest of it. I love theatre with every fiber in my being but I am now almost positive I can not spend the rest of my life away from my family and friends. I believe so passionately that the ARTS are over looked in my home state and I want to change that. I just don't know how to define a career around championing the ARTS. A friend of mine recently opened my eyes to the idea of Arts Administration. I could manage a theatre ( Which it is an ongoing obsession/dream of mine to own a theatre or my very own. ) or museum. I could be involved with an Arts council and trail blaze funding etc. for groups in my home state. Needless to say there is a LOT of grey area in my life right now.

I know I want to go to graduate school. I often fantasize about having a PHD and teaching on a collegiate level. I know I really wouldn't like teaching high school so that is definitely out of the question...

The only thing I have to look forward to right now that could potentially help me answer some of my many life questions is the fact that I am going to a theatre conference that could potentially provide me with the opportunity for summer work. This could further benefit my discovery that I'd much rather stay close to home even if I pursue acting as my career. Or it could completely change my mind. C'est la vie!

There we have it folks. A rundown of where I am in my life. In other words a bit of a beautiful disaster. But, time is money folks and I have a rehearsal in the near future.

Until my next post, remember to straighten up and fly right. Let's all pray for a smooth flight. For some reason I highly doubt that to be a finite possibility. Then again if that was the case this journal wouldn't be worth having.

Till, then this is the captian speaking...